Light, Love, Hope

The realization had just hit me. I had committed myself. I had committed myself to leaving the safety of my inner world where I controlled things. Where I hid myself from exposing myself inner self and feelings.

I could do what I always did. I could run. I could run and never come back. No one would notice. I would just be a brief whisp of a comment that disappeared into the night. A thought that never happened.

But. It’s an interesting word, “but.” It can pull you back from the abyss, from making a wrong choice. And there it stood, taunting me. “But, what if?”
That phrase haunted me the next day, “but, what if?” There was something pulling, tugging at me to leave my little safety zone. It was like a little voice whispering, “Take the risk. What could happen?”

“Take the risk.”

Do I dare?

I sat there staring at the screen.  An interesting individual appeared in our online community.   Not only did this brave man have an intriguing name, but he wanted a topic that, typically, only women seem concerned with:  romance.

Shyknight

His name almost jumped off the screen at me.  I envisioned him standing tall with his shiny metal armor on, shield in place, sword drawn, ready to defend our honor.  A knight in shining armor flung the door wide open and stood confidently in the doorway.

My imagination started to run wild.  As I type these words, the movie “A Knight’s Tale” comes to mind.

Ah, but he’s a shy one.  Well, we shall see if we can drawn him into our conversation on the topic at hand.  Romance … and so we dove head first into the topic.

I was a bit shocked that I had gotten a response. My expectation was the opposite as this was a place, a community, that was designed for women. I was expecting to be considered an invader upon a sacred place and this would be a one-time visit for me. Again, I wondered why there wasn’t a topic concerning what I thought would be of interest to women. At least not until now, after I had asked why wasn’t there a topic on… Romance.

Maybe it was my obsession with reading history that led me to develop the ideals of chivalry and honour I tried to grasp. I devoured books while growing up. I spent countless hours reading of Knights and tournaments, Ivanhoe and King Arthur, but finally settling on my favorite style of tale, The Three Musketeers and Cyrano De Bergerac.

Now here I was, looking at the newly created Romance topic with a single post. Should I post something? Or should I just do my usual response and fade away. Instead, I decided to see what kind of person it was that responded to me. I casually scanned through the topics looking for posts of this someone. I was not disappointed. There she was, and there again. With each line read, there was something, something that I couldn’t describe. Something that was calling. Calling for me to follow and read more. As I glanced through her postings, I began to realize, there was something here that was special about her; something totally… fascinating.