It took a couple days for mental back and forth before throwing caution to the wind and logging back into that “place.” The next test was what in the world do I say?
I have always been awkward in social situations. I don’t know what to say or I feel like I will sound stupid no matter what I say. So, it is much easier for just sit off to the side and listen. You could say I was the perpetual president of “The Wallflowers of America – Illinois Chapter.”
Being this way all my life, I have learned to listen. So that is what I did once I went back. I listened, or in reality, just read posts. I read and read. You start to get really good idea of what a person is like with the way they express themselves in print. What words they choose. What phrases they use.
I would throw out the occasional post which more often than not had absolutely nothing to do with the conversation going on. The magical thing is that a certain person would almost always respond. It became at times what you might called a verbal waltz. Dancing to the whisper of a hidden orchestra playing behind the words on the screen.
After a time, I started to feel more at ease. You see that is important to people that are like me; quiet, reserved, and basically afraid to initiate most forms of communication. Feeling at ease is important to most people but some of us it is first and foremost in our minds.
February 7, 2023 @ 11:21 am
I totally get what you’re saying! I used to be so afraid to share my opinion or start a conversation, but as the years went by, I finally realized that my identity is in Christ. So I learned to put my confidence in Him and not in myself, and that has made a world of difference. It’s still not always easy to put myself out there, but knowing God is with me, I can be vulnerable. If I make mistakes, which I surely do, God is still with me and I can learn from every situation. I’m glad you’re participating in this #write28days challenge. You always have some wise words! Blessings to you!
February 7, 2023 @ 7:32 pm
I’m glad you were able to find someone you could communicate with ease with!